Ten, Nine, Eight, Seven, Six, Five, Four, Three, Two, One. Happy New Year! Delightful, end of another year! So what’s next? I was at a kebab party at an Uncle’s place. Every year the same thing day in and day out all climaxes to one event, ‘a new year’ at the end of the year! So what’s next? Back to life, parties, all the usual. What I want to know is when will the next event be any different to the last event? Or does this just keep continuing generation after generation, year after year until it’s time for someone to maybe departure and part with the dear old ‘world.’

It’s the end of another year. Finally, time to get some rest from the ‘fatigue’ of the ‘world.’ I decided at 2.00 am, at night it should be time for me to departure dear old Uncles’ kebab party and look for some hope in the world. So I left. Yes, I left for a long, long cruise down to ‘nowhere.’ I drove as far as I could, out beyond the countryside with the music thumping in my vehicle and a gallon of fuel to last for another ‘New Years!’ I kept my windows completely down as I was looking for hope in the winds to cool the atmosphere in the car in a ‘hot summers night’ I thought the winds of the cool, but warm nights may neutralise the temperature, if there had of been an air conditioner in the car, ‘I would’ve froze to death’. I drove far and knew the roads in the back of my mind. As, I ventured out beyond the woods. I could see distant houses with remaining Christmas decorations on their trees out in the open twilight. I thought if my car broke down over here, maybe one of these houses may come of some use or I’d have to walk a mile to the nearest phone booth or my hand set may come handy with the charger ready to play in the car. Either way I had these three options. So I should sit back and enjoy the night, as it would come to be.

As, I drove way beyond, within the night weird things started to emerge. Things that I wouldn’t have noticed had I of done this during the day. I started to see images of things that I would maybe think, 'my mind was playing up.' But no they were real and, ‘No!’ I wasn’t on any drugs or alcohol as I have a low tendency to be on any of those type of chemicals especially since I was driving and mainly since I like to consciously be wide ‘aware’ of what is going on around me. ‘Absorbing the atmosphere,’ is what I call it. I could first of all see the moon as wide and as orange as can be in front of my windscreen that one would think they’re getting a glimpse of the planet ‘Mars’. Secondly these weird shapes seemed as if they were forming as I was driving and I could swear that there was no bridge in front of me yet as I drove further I could clearly see the open road without any bridges. Yet when I drove closer the shape of a bridge formed and then there was a bridge that I went under. There were also streets and exits off the road that I had no idea would take me to God knows where? But being the brave one that I am I decided it was time to see where these exits lead and go towards the unknown. They just went into streets and houses and then I needed the entrance to the highway again to get me back on the road.

I must say I thought constantly, ‘There could be anything or any types of lives within these streets and these houses.’ Then I drove further and saw a ‘closed’ down petrol station and I could swear it felt like there was a time I used to live around here with the same family as I have right now. The question is I know it couldn’t have been the family I am with right now. But I could swear that they were exactly the same. Kind of like a memory sparking off from the past as if I was waking from an, ‘amnesia’ attack. But how could that be? Where are they? Why? Beyond that, what happened to them and how do I know that the same thing; whatever it was won’t happen again?
I started to worry but ignored it as I normally do and then I started to think it’s time to head back. So I took the nearest exit and came back on the highway this time heading home. As I entered the highway a fog so thick in the darkness to nowhere where I could just barely see the moon under the twilight. I managed to see him. ‘God’. It was when I saw my own reflection in the rear view mirror. That’s right it was my own reflection, as one would have when they view the rear of the departed road.

It’s the one reflection that I knew has seen everything and knew of everything. God only knows how many worlds I have seen and how many lives have been and how many will be? I constantly need to go through the feeling of amnesia through different lives so I could forget about the last life. As each life ends just like having to leave your last house that you lived in the time before! I drove further and then I heard a familiar voice in my mind. It was the voice of the girl I loved the most and she said I know what you’re thinking? You want everything and I said yes. I want everything the heartbreak the torment and the love all over again and again for as long as it takes, as we will never part my dear beloved! Whoever you are? Yet I know you because in every life no matter how many times we have done this. We are binded together forever. Then I felt like God all over again and I said I don’t want to see the city again and then the road all of a sudden kept repeating itself for as long as it could like a music track that keeps ‘looping.’ Until I said, ‘OK!’ stop! I want to see the city again and go back. I could distinctly recall saying them in my mind as spoken commands that my brain waves could calculate. But I knew that I was speaking to nothing and then the road stopped repeating itself and stopped looping and then I could see the road sign to the way back into the city as the fog cleared.

© Copyright: http://www.the-library.com.au, Original Release Date: 20/08/2008, Re-Released: 21/02/2011.